Dear Self: Enough

It's June.  You just turned 32.  And today, you declared "enough."

There's been a lot you've been through.  A lot this month.  A lot this year.  A lot these past 5 years.  But today, you woke up and reluctantly looked in the mirror before your shower and saw stretch marks on your stomach.  Ironic how you have been feeling the urge, that took longer than expected, to be a mother.  And with that, you would be ecstatic at seeing the growth of your stomach knowing you were about to become that mother.  That stretch marks would be expected, perhaps even wanted. Yet here you are, not pregnant, just fat.

There are so many things that got you to this point.  To your highest weight.  Yet without looking at the past, you can't move forward.

So let's do that.  Let's reflect on the past.  Let's be realistic with the present.  Let's plan for the future.